I am scared of people well everything actually. I was abused physically, mentally, and emotionally I was sexually abused by a man that mom was cheating on Daddy with I told her she chose him over me. I was born sick mom wanted perfect children my other siblings were born with health issues I remember all the way back to age 3 withdrawing from the world I never socialized now as a nearly 51 I don't have any friends I am not close to anyone. I have panic attacks a lot I don't know what the triggers are. As far as dissociation I go inside that's my safe place.