Astrid_Shadow
Confident
Hey everyone.
It's been a while since I've been here. I had a lot going on in my life and still do. I was talking to my mom today and she asked a question and told me to be honest with her. I have been living with my mom for six years now. In 2012 I had a son with my now ex boyfriend. His family has custody of my son and now I am left with a hard choice. My mom asked me if I wanted to move to where my son is so I can see him more often and be back in his life since I haven't seen him since he was six months old. I didn't give her an answer. I don't know what I should do. Should I leave my family behind to go be with my son or stay home and leave my son without his mother, which I've been doing and I still feel guilty about. My sons 4 years old now and I've already missed so much of his life. My ex was very controlling and abusive. If I go back to my son it means I need to deal with my ex again. I don't know what to do anymore guys. On top of it all I wanna get back into a job I was doing but because it gave me ptsd my mom keeps saying no, even though its a very fast way to get money. Another reason I haven't left is because I don't wanna abandon my sister. I haven't known her very long but it just doesn't feel right. My son is 8 hours away so if I do leave I won't be able to see my family much anymore. Any advice would be really appreciated because I'm falling apart because the way I see it I'm leaving someone behind, my family...or my son.
Thanks in advance for reading.
It's been a while since I've been here. I had a lot going on in my life and still do. I was talking to my mom today and she asked a question and told me to be honest with her. I have been living with my mom for six years now. In 2012 I had a son with my now ex boyfriend. His family has custody of my son and now I am left with a hard choice. My mom asked me if I wanted to move to where my son is so I can see him more often and be back in his life since I haven't seen him since he was six months old. I didn't give her an answer. I don't know what I should do. Should I leave my family behind to go be with my son or stay home and leave my son without his mother, which I've been doing and I still feel guilty about. My sons 4 years old now and I've already missed so much of his life. My ex was very controlling and abusive. If I go back to my son it means I need to deal with my ex again. I don't know what to do anymore guys. On top of it all I wanna get back into a job I was doing but because it gave me ptsd my mom keeps saying no, even though its a very fast way to get money. Another reason I haven't left is because I don't wanna abandon my sister. I haven't known her very long but it just doesn't feel right. My son is 8 hours away so if I do leave I won't be able to see my family much anymore. Any advice would be really appreciated because I'm falling apart because the way I see it I'm leaving someone behind, my family...or my son.
Thanks in advance for reading.