whiteraven
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One of the biggest stressors for me is anything to do with medicine. That's grown from having emotional issues and upsets when dealing with providers (hospitals, doctors, etc.) to those same issues and upsets with just seeing related things--like ads, articles, newsclips, etc.
I was a registered nurse and worked on a psych unit for five years. My dad was a physician's assistant. My brother works in physical therapy, his wife is a nurse, and my nephew is going into health and fitness. I worked for 16 years for a medical company, and I currently work for a medical company. It's been hard for me to escape.
I'm fine with family if we don't talk about it. But I have gone from being a regular and compliant patient to avoiding medical care at all--well, most--costs. I still engage, but only when absolutely necessary.
I've been the recipient of many instances of neglectful, poor care, have witnessed and been the recipient of care that would consitute malpractice, have had countless experiences of providers refusing to hear me, which always resulted in needing extended care. So I think all of this feeds that lack of trust (that terror) that comes from having to deal with anything medicine related.
But it's not just that. It's observing and seeing how medicine is in this country (US). How so few truly work in the service of the patient. How little care there is for how decisions affect the whole patient. How, when decisions affect a patient in a way that will change their lives, no one really cares. It's the institutions behind the people, but the people have become so indoctrinated in the way things are "suppposed" to be, that they are incapable of thinking for themselves.
This is my biggest issue right now. And it spills over into other institutions as well. I've come to believe that, generally, institutions of all kinds exist only for their ability to make a profit.
I struggle with this every day, and I have no way to manage or get beyond it.
I was a registered nurse and worked on a psych unit for five years. My dad was a physician's assistant. My brother works in physical therapy, his wife is a nurse, and my nephew is going into health and fitness. I worked for 16 years for a medical company, and I currently work for a medical company. It's been hard for me to escape.
I'm fine with family if we don't talk about it. But I have gone from being a regular and compliant patient to avoiding medical care at all--well, most--costs. I still engage, but only when absolutely necessary.
I've been the recipient of many instances of neglectful, poor care, have witnessed and been the recipient of care that would consitute malpractice, have had countless experiences of providers refusing to hear me, which always resulted in needing extended care. So I think all of this feeds that lack of trust (that terror) that comes from having to deal with anything medicine related.
But it's not just that. It's observing and seeing how medicine is in this country (US). How so few truly work in the service of the patient. How little care there is for how decisions affect the whole patient. How, when decisions affect a patient in a way that will change their lives, no one really cares. It's the institutions behind the people, but the people have become so indoctrinated in the way things are "suppposed" to be, that they are incapable of thinking for themselves.
This is my biggest issue right now. And it spills over into other institutions as well. I've come to believe that, generally, institutions of all kinds exist only for their ability to make a profit.
I struggle with this every day, and I have no way to manage or get beyond it.