Hello!
As a child I had many traumatic events in hospitals. I was diagnosed with a congenital heart defect. Fortunately, I did not need surgery.
Now, my problem is that I can't do blood tests and injections. I have a problem with the medical needles.
I don't know if I have a needle phobia or medical ptsd.
If I have to do an injection or a blood test I cry very hard. My main problem is crying. I feel a great fear and I cry. I can't stop crying for an hour or 2.
Since childhood I developed a fetish for medical needles. Sometimes I masturbate and have an orgasm watching videos with people receiving injections or taking a blood test. I stung myself with medical needles. I didn't cry, I was excited. I did this as a systematic desensitization to overcome my fear of needles, it didn't work.
Does the medical needle fetish indicate a needle phobia or medical ptsd?
How can I find out if I have a needle phobia or medical ptsd?
Thank you!
(Sorry for the language mistakes, english is not my native language.)
As a child I had many traumatic events in hospitals. I was diagnosed with a congenital heart defect. Fortunately, I did not need surgery.
Now, my problem is that I can't do blood tests and injections. I have a problem with the medical needles.
I don't know if I have a needle phobia or medical ptsd.
If I have to do an injection or a blood test I cry very hard. My main problem is crying. I feel a great fear and I cry. I can't stop crying for an hour or 2.
Since childhood I developed a fetish for medical needles. Sometimes I masturbate and have an orgasm watching videos with people receiving injections or taking a blood test. I stung myself with medical needles. I didn't cry, I was excited. I did this as a systematic desensitization to overcome my fear of needles, it didn't work.
Does the medical needle fetish indicate a needle phobia or medical ptsd?
How can I find out if I have a needle phobia or medical ptsd?
Thank you!
(Sorry for the language mistakes, english is not my native language.)