Ellabella44
MyPTSD Pro
A few weeks ago I went to my aa meeting and someone new was there and said hi to me. At the time I was having a trauma anniversary and became very hypervigilant and panicked. To the point of wanting to run screaming out of there because every noise was louder to me and people walking above in the church were suddenly my parents coming to get me and force me to go through the event again.
I took out my lanyard on my keys and ran it through my fingers to re direct my brain and try to convince myself this group of people won't let my parents have me. Then this person walked in and said hi. I wasn't doing well so did my best to say hi back without screaming.
I apologised the next meeting and said I was having a hard time and why. She seemed ok. The next week she said I was mean. I don't know what to do with that. I'm kind to almost everyone. And others have described me as nice as well.
She looked like an interesting person to get to know. Next meeting is tonight. Anyone have any advice?
I took out my lanyard on my keys and ran it through my fingers to re direct my brain and try to convince myself this group of people won't let my parents have me. Then this person walked in and said hi. I wasn't doing well so did my best to say hi back without screaming.
I apologised the next meeting and said I was having a hard time and why. She seemed ok. The next week she said I was mean. I don't know what to do with that. I'm kind to almost everyone. And others have described me as nice as well.
She looked like an interesting person to get to know. Next meeting is tonight. Anyone have any advice?