Undiagnosed Misconduct, systemic corruption


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Hello. Joined months ago but have only just found the wherewithal to communicate.

'Moral injury' as far as I've understood it, is the aspect of PTSD that stands out in my situation.

I am a victim of collaborative acts of misconduct involving my local council in the UK, the local police, including two supposed departments of oversight, the MP for the area, the police watchdog the IOPC, and two 'ombudsmen', the Housing Ombudsman and the Local Government and social Care Ombudsman. The situation began with the activities of a violent neighbour with nine convictions, and escalated from negligent handling of this to blatant lying from council staff, police officers damaging a laptop when they forced entry to my home when I was overcome with stress and was briefly a missing person.

I'm glad I now know what I know, but it has knocked me out. I know the country I live in is not a democracy. I know that systemic corruption is real and that it means not single institutions being corrupt but that there is a solid web of collaboration, to protect errant staff and to cover up wrongdoing - to protect the state, the hidden machinations of the state. I have googled my kind of situation and seen it goes on all the time and that the techniques used against me are used all the time, consistently. I'm 50, and have lived since my late teens with a belief in dialogue and reason, a belief in civilised behaviour. What has been done by supposed authorities has smashed that to pieces. Additionally I've been treated badly by supposed friends and family, in ways that echo the institutional abuses. I just want to leave - leave this country and everyone I've known. I have no money and am in this vulnerable condition but trying to create a new life from scratch, even being homeless for a time, seems preferable to tolerating any more of what is happening.

I trust and have no reason to doubt my 'perception' of events. I have been gaslighted over this, institutionally gaslighted, because these people know the extent of their misconduct. Legal precedent suggests a figure like £400,000 would be what I would achieve in court as compensation, which I want. There has been so much collaboration, so much unlawful activity and discrimination that it's scandalous. And I know other less articulate people, less able to learn of the law and to argue articulately, go through the same and suffer, maybe more, maybe less.

Letters and emails prove everything I 'allege'. I cannot get a lawyer involved, none of them replied to letters and emails. I couldn't get two newspapers to talk to me, despite their alleged social concerns.

I have to correct my typing a lot, and verbally I struggle to find words. My concentration is wrecked and I am exhausted every day. I published writing in my 30s in magazines, so the compromised communication and struggling to read books is quite a dent in my sense of self.

I've had plenty of counselling over the last thirty years, and sixteen useful sessions in relation to this. But I am really not doing well and often don't want to be here.

Thanks for listening.


Welcome to the community 🙂

Just to clarify, since you used the OTHER prefix (journalists, students, doctors/therapists, etc; anyone who doesn’t have PTSD, doesn’t think they may have PTSD, nor supports someone who has PTSD)… Have you been diagnosed with PTSD, think you may have it, or are supporting someone who does?


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I would like to have selected 'Sufferer' because I'm pretty sure PTSD is the fair term for where this has led. Should I or you change the prefix to Sufferer? I have asked to be referred to a psychiatrist today actually, but am wary of a professional de-validating what I strongly believe. But if 'Other' is correct as far as this forum is concerned that's fine with me.

I partly say this because I did meet a genuinely good psychiatrist the other year who kind of 'invited' me to consider I have EUPD - he seemed liberal enough that he seemed to believe that we were having a dialogue. He was quite a young man (slightly younger than me) of Nigerian heritage and quite refreshing in his outlook compared to the colder and sometimes aggressive nature of 1990s mental health professionals. I don't believe professionals have the last word.