Sweetleaf
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My mom just came up from behind me and pointed her wireless mouse in my face (I guess I mean "at my face", it was just really close like point blank basically) and clicked the buttons. Like as a joke or some shit? I didn't think it was very funny. I freaked the f*ck out, got startled and got really f*cking frightened.
To me it was a gun in my face.
There was no time for my mind to go "you know, nobody here has a gun and nobody here would be pointing one in your face ever"
I didn't have time to recognize the object before my brain saw a black object in someones hand in my face and just went "HEY!! GUN IN YOUR FACE!!"
So I recoiled and got startled and froze and made a noise
I had a flashback of my abuser pointing a gun in my face. I was just frozen and so scared.
It flooded me with memories to have that all happen.
Now im in my room shaking. I couldn't keep sitting out there in the living room like I was. She was apologizing for doing it, not knowing it would scare me. I dont know if i responded.
Anyone else ever have shit like this happen? ._.
To me it was a gun in my face.
There was no time for my mind to go "you know, nobody here has a gun and nobody here would be pointing one in your face ever"
I didn't have time to recognize the object before my brain saw a black object in someones hand in my face and just went "HEY!! GUN IN YOUR FACE!!"
So I recoiled and got startled and froze and made a noise
I had a flashback of my abuser pointing a gun in my face. I was just frozen and so scared.
It flooded me with memories to have that all happen.
Now im in my room shaking. I couldn't keep sitting out there in the living room like I was. She was apologizing for doing it, not knowing it would scare me. I dont know if i responded.
Anyone else ever have shit like this happen? ._.