More Verbal Abuse

[Casey_03]

This is a follow up thread to my post yesterday about my ex calling me a worthless whore, liar, etc. I know I shouldn't even be listening to anything he says. But now he has accused me of lying about all my traumas. I told him about things that I've never told anyone else, that I only recently began to remember. Now, he and some of our mutual friends have decided I made it all up. They sat around in a group discussing me and decided I'm a liar. Why? Because one of the things I told my ex I also apparently told one of our mutual friends while very drunk. But I wasn't aware I'd told him because I was very very drunk. So they decided if I said I'd never told anyone else, but in fact had told someone else, it must be made up. Nobody seems to understand that this is often how traumas come to the surface, especially when alcohol is involved. Instead they've just deemed me a liar. Why on earth anybody would make up such traumas is beyond me. But it kills me to think they think I'm lying. Just like my parents did when I was young and tried to tell them something bad happened. Just like my abuser did years later. I don't want to leave my house. I've been in bed for days and don't want to get up or go out into the world. I always get back up after getting knocked down but this time I want to stay down. I spent several decades of my life pretending everything was okay, being successful and highly functional. And in the last few years I've started to open up for the first time ever, in the hopes it would help me heal. But instead I'm just accused of lying.

 

[Friday]

Yep. All I can say is been there.

 

[Ronin]

You're not a liar, and what they think matters only as long as it matters to you.

(Quiet support)