I get upset over a few movies. The scene in Mommy Dearest where she goes hysterical over wire coat hangers. It is my mother to a tee over a streak of suds on the sink. This boy's life with De Niro. His belittling of his step son Leonardo De Caprio sets me off. Lately it was a mini series called Patrick Melrose. His father's contempt for his son was very hard to take and I had to stop watching. A friend cant watch Once Were Warriors about domestic violence in Maori communities. I have no problem with it because physical violence was minimal whereas he was beaten every night. I am trying to overcome the internalised self abuse and I am sick of cringing my way through life.