So I guess I need to vent here because this seems to be the only place where we all understand and support each other.
I've decided I gotta do what's best for me. Even though I know me and my combat vet have been over for a few weeks I still held on. We never officially said hey lets break up but I feel its obvious. 6 months of happiness, stress,love,confusion and every emotion in between. All worth it too.
Since beginning of Feb he says he hasnt been happy and its not me or anything personal. But he just admitted that this week.We got together in Sept and it was fun and all honeymoon phase.We broke up on good terms in Nov when he moved back home to his family several hours away. We constantly kept in touch too. At Christmas he admitted to missing me and said he still loved me so we tried to work it long distance. I visited twice at Christmas and end of Jan and it was the honeymoon phase again. Feb til now has been stressful and hard. Push, pull, hot and cold and isolation. I think hes battling depression along with his untreated PTSD. Ive just decided I need to move on from my feelings and maybe we can just be friends.
I dont hate him, we still talk daily. He says he trusts me. But he still wants to move far away from his family so he can be happier. There's only so much you can sacrifice yourself til you can't. Im no means giving up on him as a person. I love him and will always be there to support him. When he finally gets help and his happiness back then maybe things can change. Im not sure what else to do. Im usually really good at shutting down and blocking feelings but I just couldn't with him.
But as of this weekend I am putting me first.
Guess I just needed to vent. Maybe one day things will work out. I mean we meet these guys for a reason right. I just hope the best for him.
I've decided I gotta do what's best for me. Even though I know me and my combat vet have been over for a few weeks I still held on. We never officially said hey lets break up but I feel its obvious. 6 months of happiness, stress,love,confusion and every emotion in between. All worth it too.
Since beginning of Feb he says he hasnt been happy and its not me or anything personal. But he just admitted that this week.We got together in Sept and it was fun and all honeymoon phase.We broke up on good terms in Nov when he moved back home to his family several hours away. We constantly kept in touch too. At Christmas he admitted to missing me and said he still loved me so we tried to work it long distance. I visited twice at Christmas and end of Jan and it was the honeymoon phase again. Feb til now has been stressful and hard. Push, pull, hot and cold and isolation. I think hes battling depression along with his untreated PTSD. Ive just decided I need to move on from my feelings and maybe we can just be friends.
I dont hate him, we still talk daily. He says he trusts me. But he still wants to move far away from his family so he can be happier. There's only so much you can sacrifice yourself til you can't. Im no means giving up on him as a person. I love him and will always be there to support him. When he finally gets help and his happiness back then maybe things can change. Im not sure what else to do. Im usually really good at shutting down and blocking feelings but I just couldn't with him.
But as of this weekend I am putting me first.
Guess I just needed to vent. Maybe one day things will work out. I mean we meet these guys for a reason right. I just hope the best for him.