My adult daughters can't get along because of PTSD symptoms.They're my only family. I'm getting depressed. The abuse ended 4 years ago. I bought a condo last year, I'm retired and happy except I have no family left it seems. My birthday is Halloween, the holidays are coming. I just started to learn to cook and I was anticipating a wonderful life cooking for them. I'm completely crushed and heartbroken. I'm not going to decorate or do anything for my birthday or the holidays. I give up.