My friend Rene didn't invite me to his birthday party. I thought I was getting to be one of his close friends again, but I guess I'm still not. I don't understand, I'm always being nice to him. He even told me that I won't be able to be one of his closest friends anymore. He won't tell me his personal life to me anymore, he will only tell his personal life to his 2 friends named Malik and Joshua. I made 1 mistake to Rene for unfriending him in the past because he was super emotionally & verbally abusive to me, and he doesn't forgive me 100 percent still. It's like he expects me to be perfect and not make a single mistake to him. I don't understand, Malik and Joshua made mistakes to Rene before, but he forgave them 100 percent. So the saying is I'm not allowed to make mistakes to him at all, only his other friends can make mistakes, and they get forgiven 100 percent. Malik even hurt me before, and Rene knew about it, but they didn't care if I was hurt by Malik because Malik didn't hurt Rene. So another saying is if Malik hurts Rene in a really bad way, Rene will unfriend Malik, but when Malik hurts me in a really bad way, Rene won't care since the hurt didn't apply to him. So he only cares about if he got hurt, but not when I was hurt. I've seen the people I know got hurt by the others, but their friends defended them. Nobody defended me. Rene used to hurt me alot in the past by being super emotionally and verbally abusive to me, but nobody cared, but when I defended myself by unfriending Rene before because of how super abusive he was to me, his friends got so mad at me that I lost my confidence because of how he and his friends were to me. It made me defenseless, depressed, and more. Then 2 and a half years later, I tried to apologize to Rene because of what I did by unfriending him for what he did to me, and he doesn't forgive me 100 percent anymore. So it makes me feel like I never had a single real friend in my entire life, only the others that I know have real friends that respects and cares about them. I even tried to make new friends before that could respect and care about me, but they didn't like me. So I never got a single new friend either. So it's better for me if I'm alone than to have the friends that don't respect me or care about me.