I left him just over a year ago. I've had nightmares on and off. After the verdict was handed down in the trial (he got off all 11 charges, the protection order was dropped and they gave him back his firearm), I had a couple of nightmares but then I was really good for a couple of months. Then a well meaning friend who didn't realise the protection order had been dropped told me he was back in the area. Unsurprisingly, I became pretty hypervigilent particularly the nights I am alone at home. Recently, the nightmares have started again.
Last night in my dream I was alone with him and he was sneering at me and telling me that he could kill me and get away with it because no-one would believe it was him. Then he dared me to see if I could get to my car faster than he could load his firearm. I ran, but it was like I was moving in treacle. My legs wouldn't seem to move.
More than anything I resent him taking up room in my head. I wasted enough time on him. I don't want to spend one more second thinking about him - awake or asleep!
Last night in my dream I was alone with him and he was sneering at me and telling me that he could kill me and get away with it because no-one would believe it was him. Then he dared me to see if I could get to my car faster than he could load his firearm. I ran, but it was like I was moving in treacle. My legs wouldn't seem to move.
More than anything I resent him taking up room in my head. I wasted enough time on him. I don't want to spend one more second thinking about him - awake or asleep!