I am utterly confused and am unsure what to do for the best. My partner and I were together for nearly two years, until he broke up with me 5 days before Christmas. It wasn't the easiest of two years. There were a lot of ups and downs. We started a relationship and then he went away for a month and I only saw him on weekends and then he moved away to do a Masters and we were in a long distance relationship for nearly a year. Then covid hit and he came back but we couldn't see each other properly and then in August last year I started having flashbacks to my childhood sexual abuse. I had no recollection of any of these memories up until then. It was really hard like my entire life was a lie and I really struggled with C-PTSD symptoms and still do, just not to the extent I did in August. He moved in because I couldn't sleep alone and he wanted to be there for me but he struggled living with my family. Then in December he told me that he didn't want a relationship with me anymore and that he wanted to focus on himself. Honestly my whole world came crashing down it was another hurdle to have to overcome on top of everything else. He moved out. He is part of my support network. We had been doing couples counselling sessions up until March, which didn't really shed any light on what to do. The counsellor just kept saying that we have such a strong connection and that we are both so adult about the situation. In a way it was helpful but also not because its like being stuck in an unknown. We have been seeing each other and he is still the person that I turn to when I need someone because he wants to be. He says he wants to be the person that I call when I need help. But I am struggling because its like we are still in a relationship without the title. This week my C-PTSD has been really hitting me and I have been struggling and the thought of losing him really shakes me up and triggers me. He was the first person I told about what happened to me and I really love him and he loves me but he doesn't want to be with me. It is really painful sometimes knowing that. Thinking that he will eventually move on and that will break my heart even more. A tiny part of me thinks that we should cut contact to be able to both move on. But then a massive part of me can't stand the thought of losing him. I just don't know what to do for the best. Any advice?