mumstheword
MyPTSD Pro
It was so unexpected. He was involved with my bestie but clearly had c-ptsd going on as he shared with us his horrendous childhood. A dynamic, honourable, very authentic and decent man. I think she was out of depth with her own mental illness and medication issues and dependency needs and he was out of depth with her needs, his health issues and a toxic enmeshment situation with his older sister who he had been relying on as his health had been very dicey for some, many years.
I saw so many things in him that I could totally relate too. I trusted him but it was complicated, he was my besties boyfriend. I wish relationships between people of opposites sex's wasn't so complicated because of the obvious issues. I just wanted to get to know him better, offer him more peer support, friendship and understanding but it got awkward when he and my bestie were all push-pull, on again, off again.
I hadn't been very well myself, I went into hospital. I wish oh how I wish i had checked in with him when I got out and really connected with him. I feel so much regret, guilt, grief, shame, hurt, ripped off, lost, frightened of losing even.more people to suicide. We have really, really, really high rates here and I have 7 children. I'm feeling kinda terrified of this repeating itself with more friends and even though my family aren't prone, no one has succumbed, my parents, myself and many of my children have all had suicidal ideation.
I saw so many things in him that I could totally relate too. I trusted him but it was complicated, he was my besties boyfriend. I wish relationships between people of opposites sex's wasn't so complicated because of the obvious issues. I just wanted to get to know him better, offer him more peer support, friendship and understanding but it got awkward when he and my bestie were all push-pull, on again, off again.
I hadn't been very well myself, I went into hospital. I wish oh how I wish i had checked in with him when I got out and really connected with him. I feel so much regret, guilt, grief, shame, hurt, ripped off, lost, frightened of losing even.more people to suicide. We have really, really, really high rates here and I have 7 children. I'm feeling kinda terrified of this repeating itself with more friends and even though my family aren't prone, no one has succumbed, my parents, myself and many of my children have all had suicidal ideation.