I have posted recently about my issues and how it has been effecting my family. recently I have been on the phone with the VA crisis line quite a bit and have started going to AA meetings, along with talking more openly with certain friends and support. Just in the past few days I have seen a big change in my fiance'. She keeps telling me that she needs space and needs to think about what she wants, but she calls me everyday I'm off before I even get up to talk and even envites me over more and more as the time has gone by. The dim light tha has been burning in the back of my mind of hope that she gave has been getting brighter as time goes by. She got mad at me cause I didn't stay and do what we had agreed on to do together the othe night, but when I told her that I was going to look into a few leads I had gotten for help and explained to her that I NEEDED TO DO THIS FOR ME!!! shw seemed to calm down. Then last night I told her that I had another AA meeting to go to she asked why I needed to go to another on already. I told her that I need to do this cause I'm holding on to the hope that she gave me that things will work out if I continue to get the help, and I kept my promise to be back at a certain time to get her and our faminly home. She seemed to be ok with that once she found out that I actually went and got what I told her what I was going to get. Tonight I went to another meeting to check it out and to keep on the track that I need to be on. When she left with her friend to go to the store I told her that I would talk to her later. She called me and asked if the meeting was over. When I got to where I'm staying I called her and told her that I had just gotten back and that I was going to get a shower and relax before I went to bed. She swore that she had asked me yo come back over to play a game with our friends and I know that she didn't, I apoligized and told I didn't hear it although I know that she didn't ask. I went back over there and we had fun.
Am I wrong to think that she is finally realizing that I am dedicated to getting help and wanting me around more, or is this just a hoax. Please any insite will be help full. Please let me know on here. Any help and support I can get will greatly be appreciated. Thank-you all for your dedication.
Am I wrong to think that she is finally realizing that I am dedicated to getting help and wanting me around more, or is this just a hoax. Please any insite will be help full. Please let me know on here. Any help and support I can get will greatly be appreciated. Thank-you all for your dedication.
