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moki
Hi, I am a 46 yr old wife and mother of 2 great teenagers. my husband is a great guy and never hurts me or anything like that. things have slowly gone downhill for the past few years, then I changed jobs (from a bad one to a horrible one) and sort of flipped out. really weird for me, i'm usually level headed although get pissed off easily but keep it in. All fall, i was super angry at him and was horrified at the depth of my anger - i hadn't felt that way since teenager years. it's taken me from last september til end of january to finally get mood stabilized with lamictal (ssri's never worked very long in past depressions). Now in marriage counseling and just feel absolutely NOTHING for my husband. well, except anger. I feel stupid writing this because the stuff that happened to me in early childhood and teenage years were just a lot of neglect, humiliation, stuff like that. therapist is quite sure this is ptsd. reading all of these other accounts makes me sort of embarrassed to write this, but i'm scared out of my mind that i'm ruining my family.