It has taken years for me to get to a point of understanding regarding my relationship with my mother. I love her dearly. I had been forever plagued by the idea that feeling anything negative toward her was wrong. I'm a grown butt woman at this point, with my own marriage and child, realizing that the way she treated me has wrecked me emotionally. More like, rendered me incapable of identifying my own emotions and regulating them. There was a lot of mess growing up: role reversal, manipulation, lies, belittling, drug abuse, emotionally abusive spouses, instability, etc. My self-worth is low. (I feel funny admitting it that way.) Cut to the chase... I'm having a hard time as I strongly desire to have a loving and nurturing mother. I wish for the physical comfort of a gentle touch or mothering embrace. It makes me feel juvenile, but I figure that if anyone can understand, it'll be someone on this site. Has anyone been able to heal is this area?