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Yes Dylan,
I told him they are MY feelings and I get to have them and he can't fix them and can't fix me. He is just wanting to concentrate on the future and doesn't want to hear anything about the bad stuff that has happened to me.............does make me feel a bit invalidated, but on the other hand, it is kind of good for me too.........but it does worry me that I have to hide this part of me.
Last night he said it just kills him when his dog has an owie on her leg........he said imagine how I feel when I see you in so much pain and there's nothing I can do. I've tried to explain to him me feeling my pain is not a bad thing..........but it sounds like he's more concerned about him than me here. I'm feeling like I can't share my deepest feelings..........it makes him too uncomfortable. This makes me feel more like a freak..........it see a downward spiral perhaps.
In a way he is sensitive to my needs because I notice him always asking, "are you OK?' in situations when he thinks I might be triggered or something. I always answer honestly. He is definately all man........wants to keep me in a happy place........but when I have tried to talk about a couple of things, he gets very adamant and says, "Those are the bad people, we are putting them over here in a little box and you don't have to deal with them anymore, OK.........(then quickly), I don't want to hear anymore.........let's focus on the future OK." Then I can't talk anymore..........
I wonder too.........his needs are more important than mine.......or he just can't stand to see me tear up and this is how he's trying to fix it. Still it's his needs right?
I told him they are MY feelings and I get to have them and he can't fix them and can't fix me. He is just wanting to concentrate on the future and doesn't want to hear anything about the bad stuff that has happened to me.............does make me feel a bit invalidated, but on the other hand, it is kind of good for me too.........but it does worry me that I have to hide this part of me.
Last night he said it just kills him when his dog has an owie on her leg........he said imagine how I feel when I see you in so much pain and there's nothing I can do. I've tried to explain to him me feeling my pain is not a bad thing..........but it sounds like he's more concerned about him than me here. I'm feeling like I can't share my deepest feelings..........it makes him too uncomfortable. This makes me feel more like a freak..........it see a downward spiral perhaps.
In a way he is sensitive to my needs because I notice him always asking, "are you OK?' in situations when he thinks I might be triggered or something. I always answer honestly. He is definately all man........wants to keep me in a happy place........but when I have tried to talk about a couple of things, he gets very adamant and says, "Those are the bad people, we are putting them over here in a little box and you don't have to deal with them anymore, OK.........(then quickly), I don't want to hear anymore.........let's focus on the future OK." Then I can't talk anymore..........
I wonder too.........his needs are more important than mine.......or he just can't stand to see me tear up and this is how he's trying to fix it. Still it's his needs right?