littleoc
MyPTSD Pro
I could use some advice. Surely I’m not alone in having gone through this.
I can’t stand where I live and it’s starting to make me act like, well, not myself. It’s ruining my drive to be creative, it’s ruining my ability to get out and do things. My service dog is going to f*cking die. My mom is acting delusional. It’s a hoarded up house that’s starting to terrify me and it’s also where most of my abuse happened. Across the street is the house where the pedophile lived.
I accidentally drove all around the neighborhood just now trying to avoid going home, parked in some guy’s driveway, and found myself in the yard of a home for rent. I have no money and I’m having a hard time finding work.
I’m losing my mind. I’m starting to wake up angry and resentful. Every time my mom talks to me I get angry and have to silence myself. I hate it when she’s home and I hate being in that house alone or with anyone else. I keep saying I’d rather be homeless but I don’t have a safe way to do that and I’m slowly getting more and more ill.
I tried looking online for help but any time I google it, it’s just about making hoarders clean up, and I’m sick of that route now.
Please help me. Just something to change the way I’m seeing this so I can be a little less “I’ll kill my self if I have to live here one more year.”
I can’t stand where I live and it’s starting to make me act like, well, not myself. It’s ruining my drive to be creative, it’s ruining my ability to get out and do things. My service dog is going to f*cking die. My mom is acting delusional. It’s a hoarded up house that’s starting to terrify me and it’s also where most of my abuse happened. Across the street is the house where the pedophile lived.
I accidentally drove all around the neighborhood just now trying to avoid going home, parked in some guy’s driveway, and found myself in the yard of a home for rent. I have no money and I’m having a hard time finding work.
I’m losing my mind. I’m starting to wake up angry and resentful. Every time my mom talks to me I get angry and have to silence myself. I hate it when she’s home and I hate being in that house alone or with anyone else. I keep saying I’d rather be homeless but I don’t have a safe way to do that and I’m slowly getting more and more ill.
I tried looking online for help but any time I google it, it’s just about making hoarders clean up, and I’m sick of that route now.
Please help me. Just something to change the way I’m seeing this so I can be a little less “I’ll kill my self if I have to live here one more year.”