Hi,
Short version, cptsd from childhood traumas compounded by a few as an adult, then between carer burnout and flare of ptsd (was subpoenaed to give witness victim testimony though at last minute this perp pleaded guilty without hearing so I was spared actually taking the stand) I was having flare of physical chronic conditions and had to attend the hospital where a clinician supposedly trained in trauma informed care caused acute trauma and I went into a fugue until I walked in and shut the door at home (I’ve spoken with the manager of that clinician including getting training put into practice, manager was fabulous). I now have to attend the hospital for a procedure, just an hour or so, and I’m having panic attacks just at the memory of having to attend the hospital grounds even though this is the opposite side of the hospital, and I can’t drive past without panic attacks. I know all my techniques and have backup meds if needed but I can’t take much as I have to drive. Ideas ? I don’t presently have a regular psychologist as just started with one I’m trialling though she’s never worked with adults or survivors so is probably too inexperienced, and my GP has been fabulous and I’ve been trying to do exposure on my own but I don’t know how I’ll get into the building or sit for the infusion especially having to drive and walk the dog after. Thanks peeps, hope you’re having a lull in symptoms, Kath
Short version, cptsd from childhood traumas compounded by a few as an adult, then between carer burnout and flare of ptsd (was subpoenaed to give witness victim testimony though at last minute this perp pleaded guilty without hearing so I was spared actually taking the stand) I was having flare of physical chronic conditions and had to attend the hospital where a clinician supposedly trained in trauma informed care caused acute trauma and I went into a fugue until I walked in and shut the door at home (I’ve spoken with the manager of that clinician including getting training put into practice, manager was fabulous). I now have to attend the hospital for a procedure, just an hour or so, and I’m having panic attacks just at the memory of having to attend the hospital grounds even though this is the opposite side of the hospital, and I can’t drive past without panic attacks. I know all my techniques and have backup meds if needed but I can’t take much as I have to drive. Ideas ? I don’t presently have a regular psychologist as just started with one I’m trialling though she’s never worked with adults or survivors so is probably too inexperienced, and my GP has been fabulous and I’ve been trying to do exposure on my own but I don’t know how I’ll get into the building or sit for the infusion especially having to drive and walk the dog after. Thanks peeps, hope you’re having a lull in symptoms, Kath