RussellSue
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So I am working on trying to get started as a freelancer - doing writing stuff - not for my fantasy novels but for businesses. But the thing is that I have not been involved in social networking in some years.
My fiance Joshua died 9 years ago and while he was sick, one of his "friends" kicked him a number of time in his legs and his diabetes didn't handle this well. I will not go into detail there. At some point, I went on a very minor rant about how his so-called friends had treated him before he died and one of my coworkers naturally thought I was insane. Later she said so on social media. I bailed and never returned. It wasn't because of her so much as it was because of bullshit friends which was a major theme for me on social media back then.
I had a flashback to Joshua's legs when a local board member slapped my husband in the head a couple of years back. It became time to find a less physically abusive town to live in or risk imprisonment.
Alright, I am off topic. The point is that I am currently reaching out to a few people I haven't talked to in a while and thinking about joining facebook again and it's triggering. I am so used to getting put down for being "a crazy person" and watching my friends act as if I should be fine with that - I am so used to socializing equaling bullying, as far back as I can remember.
I am doing this thing, don't get me wrong. I'm doing it and when I start to feel my blood boil over the strange social garbage that goes on, I vow to come here and TALK SHIT, take a walk or do anything other than address it on social media (unless I really, really should) because social networking isn't for me, it's really a business thang. I won't connect with "them" even if they do send me friend requests. Nevertheless, it makes me uncomfortable. I don't like it. I wish I knew I could do without it.
That is all.
My fiance Joshua died 9 years ago and while he was sick, one of his "friends" kicked him a number of time in his legs and his diabetes didn't handle this well. I will not go into detail there. At some point, I went on a very minor rant about how his so-called friends had treated him before he died and one of my coworkers naturally thought I was insane. Later she said so on social media. I bailed and never returned. It wasn't because of her so much as it was because of bullshit friends which was a major theme for me on social media back then.
I had a flashback to Joshua's legs when a local board member slapped my husband in the head a couple of years back. It became time to find a less physically abusive town to live in or risk imprisonment.
Alright, I am off topic. The point is that I am currently reaching out to a few people I haven't talked to in a while and thinking about joining facebook again and it's triggering. I am so used to getting put down for being "a crazy person" and watching my friends act as if I should be fine with that - I am so used to socializing equaling bullying, as far back as I can remember.
I am doing this thing, don't get me wrong. I'm doing it and when I start to feel my blood boil over the strange social garbage that goes on, I vow to come here and TALK SHIT, take a walk or do anything other than address it on social media (unless I really, really should) because social networking isn't for me, it's really a business thang. I won't connect with "them" even if they do send me friend requests. Nevertheless, it makes me uncomfortable. I don't like it. I wish I knew I could do without it.
That is all.