PandaPower
Learning
Hi,
Just feeling the need to vent. This is my 7th therapist 8 years. I live in a context where mental health services are really undeveloped and there are no regulations in place, and it is chaos out there. The first one yelled at me for 20 mins for being late to a session, nos 2 and 5 changed fields, 3 was associated with my school and couldnt continue with her post graduation, #4 was online from a different country because I couldnt find one locally, and told me that what I was calling abuse was perhaps just routine behavior in my culture, number 6 vanished off the face of the earth.
The current one is one of three trauma based (or informed) therapists in the city and I dont really know what the next step in terms of being able to find care. She keeps giving me spiritual platitudes (my aunt still exists somewhere apparently) around my grief when I don't believe in life after death or rebirth or anything like that, keeps telling me that im struggling at work because my conciousness isnt developed enough, and when I disagree with her I'm "resisting". I might not even leave this therapist at the moment, because I don't know the next or even what good therapy is supposed to look like anymore.
So tired.
Just feeling the need to vent. This is my 7th therapist 8 years. I live in a context where mental health services are really undeveloped and there are no regulations in place, and it is chaos out there. The first one yelled at me for 20 mins for being late to a session, nos 2 and 5 changed fields, 3 was associated with my school and couldnt continue with her post graduation, #4 was online from a different country because I couldnt find one locally, and told me that what I was calling abuse was perhaps just routine behavior in my culture, number 6 vanished off the face of the earth.
The current one is one of three trauma based (or informed) therapists in the city and I dont really know what the next step in terms of being able to find care. She keeps giving me spiritual platitudes (my aunt still exists somewhere apparently) around my grief when I don't believe in life after death or rebirth or anything like that, keeps telling me that im struggling at work because my conciousness isnt developed enough, and when I disagree with her I'm "resisting". I might not even leave this therapist at the moment, because I don't know the next or even what good therapy is supposed to look like anymore.
So tired.