Hello I'm new here and hello. I'm 40 and a man and have been triggered continuously lately. I feel so terrible that I lost my job again for the 50th time or so. I have been in constant physical pain for over 20 years. The damage keeps happening and it's like the damage is a negative compound interest that just keeps heaping up into a man made mountain of skull f*ckery of all the pain and suffering my kids and loved ones experience because of my failures that are apparently my fault. What hurts the worst is that my failures are directly affecting my children. And the pain gets worse when I realize how much I have been taken advantage of and left in the dust to eat dirt with the constant railroading when I try to get help so I can be a better Dad.