Purple_one
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Hi everyone,
I have just been diagnosed with PTSD due to birth trauma and pregnancy loss.
In 2019 I was induced and was having complications but was left 18 hours before I had to have an emergency c section to save my sons life. It was extremely traumatic - we thought we were going to lose our son. The doctors were in such a rush they started cutting me before the anaesthetic took hold. I felt everything and then there was massive panic in the operating room while they rushed to sedate me. Luckily my son was born and to everyone's surprise and relief had no issues.
I didn't recover well after my c section and went to my doctor and emergency where I was completely dismissed and felt worthless. For the next 18 months I lost all sense of reality and didn't feel like it was my life while I came to accept the pain because I must be imagining it - everyone told me there's nothing wrong so it's all in my head.
I then became pregnant again last year. I knew straight away something was wrong. I rang emergency and they discouraged me several times from coming in. I start bleeding and went to emergency and was encouraged to leave, that "you're only having a miscarriage and there's nothing to do". I went 3 more times over 3 weeks, now in extreme pain and eventually they scanned me. It was at this point an emergency - I had an ectopic pregnancy and ruptured tube and required immediate surgery.
I was told after my tube was infected. It was removed and for the first time in 18 months the pain was gone. I was constantly ignored by the medical profession, made feel small, like my pain wasn't real. I spent time after with a psychotherapist and felt I healed from it and moved on.
In January this year I became pregnant again. I thought I was happy but in my sleep I started badly scratching my face and body to the point where it bleeds and scars. I wake up having panic attacks where I feel like I'm having a miscarriage and am going to die. I feel dissociated from life again.
I've been to a perinatal psychiatrist who has diagnosed me with PTSD. I don't know how I'm going to get through this pregnancy. I don't trust anyone. I've been prescribed anti depressants but am afraid of how it may harm the baby. I can't really believe I'm going through this - it feels like something that happens to other people. Thanks for reading.
I have just been diagnosed with PTSD due to birth trauma and pregnancy loss.
In 2019 I was induced and was having complications but was left 18 hours before I had to have an emergency c section to save my sons life. It was extremely traumatic - we thought we were going to lose our son. The doctors were in such a rush they started cutting me before the anaesthetic took hold. I felt everything and then there was massive panic in the operating room while they rushed to sedate me. Luckily my son was born and to everyone's surprise and relief had no issues.
I didn't recover well after my c section and went to my doctor and emergency where I was completely dismissed and felt worthless. For the next 18 months I lost all sense of reality and didn't feel like it was my life while I came to accept the pain because I must be imagining it - everyone told me there's nothing wrong so it's all in my head.
I then became pregnant again last year. I knew straight away something was wrong. I rang emergency and they discouraged me several times from coming in. I start bleeding and went to emergency and was encouraged to leave, that "you're only having a miscarriage and there's nothing to do". I went 3 more times over 3 weeks, now in extreme pain and eventually they scanned me. It was at this point an emergency - I had an ectopic pregnancy and ruptured tube and required immediate surgery.
I was told after my tube was infected. It was removed and for the first time in 18 months the pain was gone. I was constantly ignored by the medical profession, made feel small, like my pain wasn't real. I spent time after with a psychotherapist and felt I healed from it and moved on.
In January this year I became pregnant again. I thought I was happy but in my sleep I started badly scratching my face and body to the point where it bleeds and scars. I wake up having panic attacks where I feel like I'm having a miscarriage and am going to die. I feel dissociated from life again.
I've been to a perinatal psychiatrist who has diagnosed me with PTSD. I don't know how I'm going to get through this pregnancy. I don't trust anyone. I've been prescribed anti depressants but am afraid of how it may harm the baby. I can't really believe I'm going through this - it feels like something that happens to other people. Thanks for reading.
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