I was diaged 4 years ago, and it's been one hell of a ride since. Now that I know I have PTSD a small comfort is in me because my whole life I thought I was just crazy and stupid because I can't control my emotions. But at the same time it's very difficult to realize these symptoms I have been experiencing is a result of trauma of domestic abuse and sexual abuse that started at age 7 and lasted until I moved out, yet still is present in my Family ( not the sex abuse ) and I am 47 which is sickening. I just recently told my dad to pretty much F off and I told him that what he did was wrong! I feel so liberated by this, but the constant day to day struggle to try to be positive, to have a sense of self, trying to live in the moment, not to mention the personalization of EVERYTHING in your life is very very exhausting yet I still sleep like shit at night. Music, cold water, meditation and hiding from others to rejuvenate seems to help some.