It’s not easy admitting that I had a problem! Most of the time I’ve bottled it up! The thought of telling someone I love or close to me embarrassed me to the point where I would shut down! Like any other issues you have to take ownership! I think to myself I went to jail! It took me going to jail to finally realize that I need help! It’s no longer embarrassing to me! It’s ok to get help.
I never thought my past would snap back! I never thought the one I loved would call me that one word to trigger my ptsd. But it happened and now here I am. The thought of being in a new place where I can see the mountains it’s so peaceful so calming! I have so long wanted help but never did because I felt I’d be judged! But here we are fixing me! I need this break away from everyone to focus on healing my past! It’s been tough to heal! Yea I can slap a bandaid on but it doesn’t always heal the wound so you go to a doctor! Having ptsd anxiety and depression is the same you can’t just cover it up without getting the help! Sometimes fixing the past is the best option!
I used to blame me for this! For my past! I still am working on it! It gets scary because you feel like your stuck! But no I’m not stuck I’m fixing me! I have always been afraid of being rejected because of my past but no more! I will stand strong and fight! No matter how bad I want to give up! I will not!
I never thought my past would snap back! I never thought the one I loved would call me that one word to trigger my ptsd. But it happened and now here I am. The thought of being in a new place where I can see the mountains it’s so peaceful so calming! I have so long wanted help but never did because I felt I’d be judged! But here we are fixing me! I need this break away from everyone to focus on healing my past! It’s been tough to heal! Yea I can slap a bandaid on but it doesn’t always heal the wound so you go to a doctor! Having ptsd anxiety and depression is the same you can’t just cover it up without getting the help! Sometimes fixing the past is the best option!
I used to blame me for this! For my past! I still am working on it! It gets scary because you feel like your stuck! But no I’m not stuck I’m fixing me! I have always been afraid of being rejected because of my past but no more! I will stand strong and fight! No matter how bad I want to give up! I will not!