Hopeful1989
Learning
I feel numb today, which is a welcome break from the hills and valleys of happiness and deep depression. But it kind of scares me, feeling nothing. I was up half the night because I fought with my fiancee, and thoughts just ran through my head. Today my thoughts have been "why can't I just shake this off." and I keep questioning if this is really happening. Did I really get abused? Was it as bad as I think it was? Am I really suffering from PTSD or am I just weak and lazy? I am so tired of these thoughts. I want them to stop. I could go back to sleep, but I don't think thats healthy. I don't know. I guess I am just venting. I just want this to be over. I wish I was stronger.