FlyLadyFan
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Been a member here for months, and I read fairly regularly but seldom post. I go by FlyLadyFan because she's my organizational ideal. If I didn't have ptsd my house would be immaculate (well, as neat as possible considering the kids and dogs). I highly recommend visiting her website, FlyLady.net. But try not to feel guilty about how far you fall short (as do I). My mom never taught me to keep house so I never realized all that was involved. I'm a little bit better now, but not much. Now I'm just aware of how much dirt I miss.
I don't post often for several reasons: The main one is I'll appear to have multiple personalities due to my extreme moodiness, opinionatedness, swiss-cheese like memory, and the complex nature of my ptsd and physical symptoms. Also, I'm not acute any longer, but chronic, 3.5 years out from the final trauma that broke me; so often it seems inappropriate to comment on many of the more acute-stage posts. (Although acute may not be a stage for anyone but their long-term status ... I think ... maybe.)
I've considered starting a thread in the journaling area here, but I fear it will trigger me and start a backslide. It's taken a long time to tease out my coping strategies and I cannot afford to return to my former bed-ridden state.
I'm still fairly house-bound and am completely friendless -- both by choice. I don't have the energy to maintain friendships so I've let them all go. Seldom leaving the house works nicely to prevent developing new friendships. And I truly never feel lonely. I fantasize about being alone on an island with a satellite internet connection, a Bible, and some yarn to crochet. No one making any demands on me whatsoever. I guess that seems extremely selfish, and while it is half self-serving it is also half to protect people from the nasty and inconsistent person I can often be. Damage control for both directions.
I take medications, three daily and two prn. Without them, this house of cards would surely collapse. When I even miss about three straight days of meds it takes a week to get back to where I was. Yet I can't figure out why I don't take them as consistently as possible ... ya'd think ...
Enough for now. Thanks for listening. And, Anthony, I congratulate you on the growth and polite tone of this forum ... it is unique on the net and sorely needed.
FLF
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I don't post often for several reasons: The main one is I'll appear to have multiple personalities due to my extreme moodiness, opinionatedness, swiss-cheese like memory, and the complex nature of my ptsd and physical symptoms. Also, I'm not acute any longer, but chronic, 3.5 years out from the final trauma that broke me; so often it seems inappropriate to comment on many of the more acute-stage posts. (Although acute may not be a stage for anyone but their long-term status ... I think ... maybe.)
I've considered starting a thread in the journaling area here, but I fear it will trigger me and start a backslide. It's taken a long time to tease out my coping strategies and I cannot afford to return to my former bed-ridden state.
I'm still fairly house-bound and am completely friendless -- both by choice. I don't have the energy to maintain friendships so I've let them all go. Seldom leaving the house works nicely to prevent developing new friendships. And I truly never feel lonely. I fantasize about being alone on an island with a satellite internet connection, a Bible, and some yarn to crochet. No one making any demands on me whatsoever. I guess that seems extremely selfish, and while it is half self-serving it is also half to protect people from the nasty and inconsistent person I can often be. Damage control for both directions.
I take medications, three daily and two prn. Without them, this house of cards would surely collapse. When I even miss about three straight days of meds it takes a week to get back to where I was. Yet I can't figure out why I don't take them as consistently as possible ... ya'd think ...
Enough for now. Thanks for listening. And, Anthony, I congratulate you on the growth and polite tone of this forum ... it is unique on the net and sorely needed.
FLF
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