Not of "sound mind"

[anonymous]

Yesterday in therapy I was explaining my reluctance to discontinue a medication I have taken on and off for nearly 20 years. This is a subject that we have discussed many times in the past as he is very insistent that this medication is not helping me and that based on things I have told him about past abuse of the med that my continued healing is dependent upon discontinuation. Today during the discussion he made the comment that when I think about discontinuation of this med I am not of a "sound mind" and I am really struggling with this comment. Not only was it upsetting but I feel hurt and labeled in many negative ways. I don't know if I should bring up in our session tomorrow, advice here would be appreciated.

 

[LuckiLee]

I would say if it's upsetting to you then yes, say something. Get it off your chest so you can continue with the progress you ARE making.

I'm not sure what he meant by his comment but he can explain himself tomorrow.

 

[anonymous]

Yesterday in therapy I was explaining my reluctance to discontinue a medication I have taken on and o...

I think he may have been trying to say that if your dependent on something that isn't helping you and or struggling with an addiction to the med it makes it impossible to make a clear objective decision about wether or not to continue the med. Not being of sound mind in a particular area doesn't make you crazy or mean you can't make good decisions in other areas of your life.

i think you should talk to him.

 

[anonymous]

Thank you both of you. Things didn't go as planned this morning and our session was cancelled. As a result I am working on drafting an email to him that discusses this and so many other things that seemed to be acting as roadblocks in our work. I don't know how we get to a place to move forward because right now my emotional response is to just quit and walk away. I feel as though I had found someone that I can trust and now all I can think is that t thinks I am crazy. :(

 

[anonymous]

I think drafting an email is a great way to process and still express how you feel about things even though your session was cancelled.

I think your feelings and viewpoints are valid, you have a right to feel the way you feel. I understand fearing that your t thinks your crazy, I'm sure most of us on here fear that some of the time, I know that I do.

As you progress through your trauma, you may find that you no longer really care what other people think. For me, the more I've worked through my trauma and have gained a better understanding about my own reactions and ways that I've coped, the more secure and accepting I have become of myself because I understand the impact of it all.

It doesn't make me feel less isolated, because just because I get it doesn't mean other people will. I've pretty much given up on trying to explain it all to those around me because it's so complex especially with ongoing or multiple traumas.

If you trust your t then take the chance and tell them what you think and feel, because it helps them to be able to better understand and help you.

I often feel like giving up too, but I know that it keeps coming back up until you work through it.