After being on at least 10 different doctor prescribed drugs, and Xanax for over 2 years, I am now drug free. I am just into the early morning hours of day 9 of no Xanax. I wasn't sure to post this yet or not. But I seem to be making it and ready to say I am really succeeding now. I feel confident to beat this and the added addiction to this medication. I saw and knew medication was a band aid but I never knew how little I really appreciated that until now. I have more clarity now. After going through the symptoms I was prescribed for and making it without meds I see it now. I can do this, I can make it from the tools provided here and Anthony doing a bang up job lighting my path. I have been weaning and healing for over a year now after knowing it was PTSD. It took a long time to get off Xanax and Zoloft and confront demons "alone". Some thought I was a success before. Now I finally am feeling like one. I never believed this day would come I could do this on my own. I want to thank everyone here as I could not have done this with out all of you and I know I will still need your friendships. And I thank you bec for all the "off line" support, we did not get off on the right foot but you turned out to be a best friend. Anthony too, but he knows that is a no brainer. He should know anyway. I think I am going to go find my first post here when I was swamped with full blown symptoms and compare it to now in a bit. I think it may give people hope that it can be done if you are willing to go through all the unforgiving pain. I thank this entire forum, seasoned members and new alike, thank you for your support.