I can't seem to stop them lately. I don't know if it's because my stressors have increased, but recently over the past two weeks, I've started having all of those negative thoughts again.
I hear my sister asking me why someone would want to be with someone who's been married 3 times and has mental health issues.
I hear my ex mother-in-law screaming at me that I am just a b$%%$ that does nothing but run away from situations.
I hear my parents telling me that what I am doing is wrong - I'm always wrong.
I hear my ex telling my daughter that I'm just out there "tramping across the country".
I hear the unspoken voices of my friends and just those around me wondering if I will ever get it right.
How do I make them stop? How do I gain back self-confidence and see my life with different lenses rather than the lenses of condemnation that everyone seems to want to put on for me? How do I know my self worth?
I hear my sister asking me why someone would want to be with someone who's been married 3 times and has mental health issues.
I hear my ex mother-in-law screaming at me that I am just a b$%%$ that does nothing but run away from situations.
I hear my parents telling me that what I am doing is wrong - I'm always wrong.
I hear my ex telling my daughter that I'm just out there "tramping across the country".
I hear the unspoken voices of my friends and just those around me wondering if I will ever get it right.
How do I make them stop? How do I gain back self-confidence and see my life with different lenses rather than the lenses of condemnation that everyone seems to want to put on for me? How do I know my self worth?