One reason you keep going?

[SeekingAfrica]

On the bad days, the worst days, the impossible days, the days you're hoping for a hail mary even though you believe in nothing, the days you can't recognize who you've become?

What is one reason you keep going?

 

[prynne]

If/when things eventually do get better, I don't want to miss out on a more enjoyable version of my life. If I kill myself, I will never be able to do the things I want to do that I haven't done yet

 

[Freida]

I won't let the bastards win
And yep - sometimes that's all I can think of. But it usually pisses me off enough to ride it out.

 

[arfie]

faith
small steps, big faith and lots of prayer.

for what it's worth
i define "faith" as that which gets me out of bed on the days i have zero proof that any of this is okay.

 

[Sideways]

Because this is temporary.

 

[MrMoonlight]

Though it's difficult now over the last 5 years I've seen improvement. That gives me hope in the darker days that the frustrations of today may not be permanent.

The only other option is suicide and that is permanent and scary.

 

[fenestrate]

Do I have a choice?

 

[whiteraven]

On the bad days, the worst days, the impossible days, the days you're hoping for a hail mary even though you believe in nothing, the days you can't recognize who you've become?

What is one reason you keep going?

Today is one of those days for me. And the ONLY reason I'm still here is my cats.

 

[Eagle3]

Sheer stubbornness. Its just not in me to give up, no matter how much I want to.

 

[intothelight]

I have a lot of external reasons to live, but it is the internal "hope for a better tomorrow" that keeps me going even on my worst days. Last month I was in ICU and sick enough there was a real question whether or not I would make it. The there was the how was I going to make it, paralyzed, using adult diapers, in pain off the charts? It messed with my PTSD pretty bad, but I also took it day by day and as I improved, I could find my hope again. Hang in there and turn off the news! If it gets worse, please get help as suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It will get better.

 

[Charbella]

Habit. Honestly sometimes it’s the only thing. As much as I don’t owe my family anything, I’ve had two suicides in my immediate family so I’ve seen first hand how it effects those left behind. Knowing my pups would likely be split up.

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

Less than 3 months ago I was as close as I’ve ever been. I’m doing really well rn. I squirrel these moments up and take them out to look at them when I’m in the depths of despair. Depressed brain is a liar and will make you think you’ve been this depressed your whole life. I try to remember that and remember that in every other depressive episode I’ve had it has passed. This time is no different even though it feels like it is some how. It always feels like this is the one I’m not getting out of this is the one that will never lift.

I’m doing so well right now I feel overwhelmed with gratitude. If you’re looking for a reason not to kill yourself today. Here it is! Please keep trying.