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GalwayGirl
Hi everyone,
English is not my first language so I apologize for the grammar mistakes.
I started therapy in January, I've been to 6 sessions. I like my therapist he does not make me feel uncomfortable, but since is my first time going to therapy I don't know how I am supposed to feel. I have problem trusting people in general. My idea to start therapy was to learn how to deal with the things that are affecting me currently and maybe be able to apply what I would learn to deal with my past problems without having to talk about them. Since I'm having a lot of panic attacks remembering sexual abuse I endured as a child and teenager, my therapist asked what was on my mind when this panic attacks happened, I told him I knew I needed to talk about this but I just can't do it. He asked me if emailing this would be easier and I said maybe and then he said that we wouldn't have our next session until I sent him this information, although he said he did not want to pressure me I do feel pressure to do this, it's just so difficult for me I'm paranoid I feel like he would think I'm disgusting and maybe I'm overreacting of what happened to me when I was a child, but I feel like if I don't talk about this I'm going to lose my mind, I'm so tired.
What should I do, how can I trust my therapist and what could I say to him if I just cant send this email?
I need help
English is not my first language so I apologize for the grammar mistakes.
I started therapy in January, I've been to 6 sessions. I like my therapist he does not make me feel uncomfortable, but since is my first time going to therapy I don't know how I am supposed to feel. I have problem trusting people in general. My idea to start therapy was to learn how to deal with the things that are affecting me currently and maybe be able to apply what I would learn to deal with my past problems without having to talk about them. Since I'm having a lot of panic attacks remembering sexual abuse I endured as a child and teenager, my therapist asked what was on my mind when this panic attacks happened, I told him I knew I needed to talk about this but I just can't do it. He asked me if emailing this would be easier and I said maybe and then he said that we wouldn't have our next session until I sent him this information, although he said he did not want to pressure me I do feel pressure to do this, it's just so difficult for me I'm paranoid I feel like he would think I'm disgusting and maybe I'm overreacting of what happened to me when I was a child, but I feel like if I don't talk about this I'm going to lose my mind, I'm so tired.
What should I do, how can I trust my therapist and what could I say to him if I just cant send this email?
I need help