Opening up in therapy

Hello everyone.

Long story short... I have bipolar disorder which is very unpleasant

Been seeing a psychologist for almost 2yrs, recently changed these last few months.



Even though I like this psychologist, I still just don't know how to talk about the hard stuff.

I guess I have a problem trusting.

And just having no idea how to talk about the things that hurt to even think about. Or the other mess that's in my head that I don't know what it even is.

She has suggested I send/email/hand her written stuff. Which sounds good in theory. But I'm scared to do even that.

It just feels impossible to open up.

Just wondering if anyone had anything helpful to share.
 
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hello douglas. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

the lion's share of my own pro psychotherapy has been under the manic depression/bipolar. same thing, different name, but the fact that the initial dx was manic depression offers clues to just how long i've been in therapy. none of my pros really believed that i was bipolar, but it was what we had to work with. when the ptsd dx became available in the 90's i was nearly ready to graduate to therapy maintenance. the bipolar tools were working when i worked then and med therapy had yet to become a thing. it was nice to have a more accurate name for ^it^ but working a program is far more important than the name of the program.

i'm already wondering if i need to stand fast to dodge @Friday 's bullet on the important diffs between ptsd and bipolar. nor will i be able to disagree, but i am eternally grateful for the old world dumb phone users who didn't make me wait until the more accurate dx was available. the important step is to get started. the rest sorts itself out in the fullness of time. the important part is to get started.

believe it or not, that ties in to the trust issues you are experiencing opening up in therapy. at least it did in my own case. arguing names for ^it^ is one of my primary tools for avoiding the leap of faith it takes to just get started.
 
i'm already wondering if i need to stand fast to dodge @Friday 's bullet on the important diffs between ptsd and bipolar. nor will i be able to disagree, but i am eternally grateful for the old world dumb phone users who didn't make me wait until the more accurate dx was available.
A lot of people find this site via Google/Bing/Etc. looking for general (or specific) treatment advice, relationship advice, etc., and the keywords used in the search pull up the page, but completely bypass/skip over that this is a PTSD site. Same thing happens on parenting sites, cancer sites, etc. Part of modding is simply making sure people are where they expect to be. We’re not Reddit, with each forum standing alone to itself, with its own rules/reqs; nor NAMI which focuses on both general mental health, as well as every specific disorder.

Others, meanwhile, assume that since …duh… this is a PTSD site, of course I have PTSD. I simply mentioned my cormorbid Dx because it complicates things, and wanted to give people the clearest & most concise picture, possible.

No way to know which, without asking. 😎
 
No way to know which, without asking. 😎
amen, friday. feeling free to ask is paramount in my own trust issues.

my first experiments with on-line peer support ran across military point-to-point circuits in the mid-70's using world war two teletypes, old baudot code. i've been heavily involved in the experiments ever since, though i seem to be ever more apathetic. single engine searches are enough for me these days.

i still prefer the sites with less censorship and am not at all fond of the trend to specialized peer support. specialization is the art of knowing more and more about less and less until finally you know everything about nothing at all. i don't care enough to form opinions about paid specialists. peer support specialists? sounds a bit oxymoronic to this dumb phone user.
 
It just feels impossible to open up.
Thats where therapy comes in - like Shrek - it's like an onion, and you take off layer after layer dealing with it until you get to the core.

If you work at it - you will get there. Your T will know when you hit the bad spots and help you deal with them. As you do you will open up more and more, and get more and more help to deal with your problems.
 
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