Not sure why this is so hard. It’s freaking me out. I am so confused and I hate it. All I want is a good relationship with someone outside of my family. That is all. None of this is me though, it feels so weird. I do not feel like the same person anymore. How do you feel like the same person when you were set up???? I am falling apart because of this. I can’t believe this all happened and now I have PTSD???? It has been 6 years, and I don’t feel better. The freaking out about who to trust is unbearable.