growingpains
Confident
I opened up to some old friends I grew up with that I have PTSD. The scariest thing for me is that a few said they had seen me in scary situations and worried about me. When I asked further they claimed that I had panic attacks before I went out driving and such but I have no recollection of the panic attacks they remember. I remember a few panic attacks but it seems like I had them a lot more often back then than I remember. Is this common? I know that PTSD effects memory, and can include panic attacks due to anxiety/stress, but what I am not sure of is if this is a personal symptom or if I always just block out memories of times when I am in a high stress/anxiety state. I understand why I blocked out my traumas except for the flashbacks--the flashbacks are so bad I don't WANT to remember more in a way. But why would my body protect me from remembering panic attacks? It is not like I can't handle the fact that I breathed hard, felt dizzy and almost passed out.