I have been diagnosed with Bipolar with psychotic depression by a psychiatrist, been with her for a few years now I trust her professional view as we've worked through a good amount of my pstd with a therapist/case worker.
I find myself getting more anxious in regards to my flipping spiral of moods, I find it more painful to be happy than sad due to the way my manic and depressive states go.
On occasion when paranoia sets in my thoughts mostly involves zombies for some ungodly known reason or having a snake come through the window and eat me, a lot of my paranoia seems to stem from being eating whole or alive (I'm honestly unsure as to why, so can't really answer that one)
I have hallucinated (however rarely) before I dont believe in "ghosts" so it could only be one other thing.
I'd say I get anxious about sleep at night, to the point I wont settle down till the sun rises I've been this way for quite some time, Honestly wish I knew why haha
I've had to take a break from university to return mid semester just to get my routine back into swing seeing as its 4:06am I'm off to a questionable start
At university I wouldn't say I'm bright about much, I want to complete VCE so I have a sound knowledge of mathematics before returning back to engineering as my highest level of studies was year nine - due to life circumstances.
However I've found in the small amount of weeks I am horrible at math methods beyond horrible. Starting to think that mathematics isn't my thing in all honesty the only thing I get passionate about truly is psychology or law.
But who wants someone who is occasionally questionable already in those fields?
So due to my paranoia at night making it impossible to sleep at the best of times, I'm taking a break at university. they've allowed myself to have some time out, due to blood noses and panic attacks in class.
I'm honestly lost but trying to make my life manageable before July
at least that's the goal
currently on a waiting list but seeing as im not daul diagnosed and deemed genetic the wait will take far longer due to current government funding, so I'm a little worried about having to pay for the service privately to help myself further before I start back.
I find myself getting more anxious in regards to my flipping spiral of moods, I find it more painful to be happy than sad due to the way my manic and depressive states go.
On occasion when paranoia sets in my thoughts mostly involves zombies for some ungodly known reason or having a snake come through the window and eat me, a lot of my paranoia seems to stem from being eating whole or alive (I'm honestly unsure as to why, so can't really answer that one)
I have hallucinated (however rarely) before I dont believe in "ghosts" so it could only be one other thing.
I'd say I get anxious about sleep at night, to the point I wont settle down till the sun rises I've been this way for quite some time, Honestly wish I knew why haha
I've had to take a break from university to return mid semester just to get my routine back into swing seeing as its 4:06am I'm off to a questionable start
At university I wouldn't say I'm bright about much, I want to complete VCE so I have a sound knowledge of mathematics before returning back to engineering as my highest level of studies was year nine - due to life circumstances.
However I've found in the small amount of weeks I am horrible at math methods beyond horrible. Starting to think that mathematics isn't my thing in all honesty the only thing I get passionate about truly is psychology or law.
But who wants someone who is occasionally questionable already in those fields?
So due to my paranoia at night making it impossible to sleep at the best of times, I'm taking a break at university. they've allowed myself to have some time out, due to blood noses and panic attacks in class.
I'm honestly lost but trying to make my life manageable before July
at least that's the goal
currently on a waiting list but seeing as im not daul diagnosed and deemed genetic the wait will take far longer due to current government funding, so I'm a little worried about having to pay for the service privately to help myself further before I start back.
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