My boyfriend would never hurt me intentionally, I know this, yet I get fear of him hurting me because nearly all men in my life have hurt me badly. (Often in traumatic ways.) I freak out every time his phone gets a notification. I get worried when he’s on his phone and/or has it in the bathroom. The phone is a big trigger for me. It’s how ex’s cheated on me and abused drugs behind my back. I’ve been with my boyfriend for one and a half years. He has given me every reason to believe/trust him. It’s really difficult for me though. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I don’t know how to enjoy myself a lot of times.