Jagged Angel
MyPTSD Pro
I have recently bought a fancy DSLR. the reason for this is that I was finding my little compact camera just didn't cut it for the images i wanted. I take my camera everywhere I can these days, and I have found a very deep love for photography.
Anyway, I was recently reflecting on my photography habits (and addiction!), and realised that because of the camera, I am now able to cope with things I couldn't cope with BC (before camera ;)). Things like: heavily populated shopping malls, music concerts, agricultural shows, markets, cities... essentially anything with a lot of people about. I also used to have trouble with overly-beautiful places because of the emotional overload, and now I can cope better with it. I used to find a lot of the world quite a sensory overload in general...
I have realised that the camera allows me to 'filter' the world. At first, it was because I could look through the viewfinder and there would be a very small part of the world there... this I could cope with. I believe that now I have begun to think in terms of the viewfinder... I have begun to see the world in small pieces, as though I am scoping it out for a photograph! this has meant that I actually want to go outside the house... if only to photograph things. Now when I travel, I cope with the world to the point that I can go out of the hotel early in the morning and not even think of returning until late at night (whereas BC, I would have to return to the hotel at least twice to rest from the overload), I am attending concerts, and agricultural shows, and car shows, and going to crowded places deliberately to take photographs! I am deliberately seeking out incredibly beautiful places to photograph. to be honest, this camera has changed my life.
I still have problems with the outside world, but the camera has given me a way of existing I thought was gone forever.
I just wanted to share this with people who understand....
Anyway, I was recently reflecting on my photography habits (and addiction!), and realised that because of the camera, I am now able to cope with things I couldn't cope with BC (before camera ;)). Things like: heavily populated shopping malls, music concerts, agricultural shows, markets, cities... essentially anything with a lot of people about. I also used to have trouble with overly-beautiful places because of the emotional overload, and now I can cope better with it. I used to find a lot of the world quite a sensory overload in general...
I have realised that the camera allows me to 'filter' the world. At first, it was because I could look through the viewfinder and there would be a very small part of the world there... this I could cope with. I believe that now I have begun to think in terms of the viewfinder... I have begun to see the world in small pieces, as though I am scoping it out for a photograph! this has meant that I actually want to go outside the house... if only to photograph things. Now when I travel, I cope with the world to the point that I can go out of the hotel early in the morning and not even think of returning until late at night (whereas BC, I would have to return to the hotel at least twice to rest from the overload), I am attending concerts, and agricultural shows, and car shows, and going to crowded places deliberately to take photographs! I am deliberately seeking out incredibly beautiful places to photograph. to be honest, this camera has changed my life.
I still have problems with the outside world, but the camera has given me a way of existing I thought was gone forever.
I just wanted to share this with people who understand....
