pamcoco
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It’s groundhog day and I’m wondering if others experienced something similar?
My life within ptsd took on a temporariness seemingly beyond my control.
At first I resisted pulling up roots in spite of significant financial and relational problems. But, eventually it felt good to let go and allow a path to emerge from the rubble.
I settled in the Sierras for several years then moved to central Oregon, then back to Los Angeles for a year until moving to Northern Oregon where I now live. None of the moves were planned, they evolved from upheaval and were just a reaction of sorts.
Now, I am tired. Weary from starting over, while once again am forced to relocate.
I realize the chaos is within me, but lack clarity about it.
Is it simply a fear of settling, to once again have the rug pulled out? Or is it that persistent apathy, a familiar companion of my disassociated self?
I appreciate any insight.
Thank you.
My life within ptsd took on a temporariness seemingly beyond my control.
At first I resisted pulling up roots in spite of significant financial and relational problems. But, eventually it felt good to let go and allow a path to emerge from the rubble.
I settled in the Sierras for several years then moved to central Oregon, then back to Los Angeles for a year until moving to Northern Oregon where I now live. None of the moves were planned, they evolved from upheaval and were just a reaction of sorts.
Now, I am tired. Weary from starting over, while once again am forced to relocate.
I realize the chaos is within me, but lack clarity about it.
Is it simply a fear of settling, to once again have the rug pulled out? Or is it that persistent apathy, a familiar companion of my disassociated self?
I appreciate any insight.
Thank you.