Cannottakethis
MyPTSD Pro
Getting and accepting my BPD diagnosis has been helpful. I've had ptsd/cptsd for years. I know my traumas, I've been processing for 3 years, I've been doing ok with flashbacks and memories, although they still rear their ugly head.
But when you look at my childhood and upbringing (aside from the csa which was someone outside the family and not brought out until I was 22) there was an extremely sensitive child who was being invalidated in almost every aspect of her life. Crying was bad, feelings weren't shown or dealt with, silent treatments the norm... boundaries....what boundaries? My parents never taught us boundaries or why they are important. My mother is a classic narcissist as well. BPD, like PTSD/CPTSD is not born, it's made, but we get a much worse rap. Accepting this diagnosis has helped me find appropriate treatment that after multiple hospital visits and iops, and DBT for 4 years, I finally feel like I have a fighting chance.
But when you look at my childhood and upbringing (aside from the csa which was someone outside the family and not brought out until I was 22) there was an extremely sensitive child who was being invalidated in almost every aspect of her life. Crying was bad, feelings weren't shown or dealt with, silent treatments the norm... boundaries....what boundaries? My parents never taught us boundaries or why they are important. My mother is a classic narcissist as well. BPD, like PTSD/CPTSD is not born, it's made, but we get a much worse rap. Accepting this diagnosis has helped me find appropriate treatment that after multiple hospital visits and iops, and DBT for 4 years, I finally feel like I have a fighting chance.