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Confusedsupporter
This is my first post. My boyfriend suffers from childhood trauma and deployment 3 times in the Navy. I've been in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend for 8months. We both agreed we are in the healthiest relationship we ever been in. We were seeing each other every two weeks and we talk on the phone regularly. However around thanksgiving out of my insecurities I told him that I felt I liked him more than me, I know stupid to say. However once I said that he's shut down on me. I feel like that triggered him. He told me a list of things he noticed I do which made him skeptical of me and his heart didn't want this relationship like this anymore. After we spoke about this I explained everything to him in detail and answered all questions of doubt he had. Then he apologized and said he loved me deeply and he apologized and he wanted us the same. But since then he's been different. He's been isolating himself from me. I haven't seen him since even though our conversation hasn't changed. Weeks later he said he felt more stress was in his life and he felt like doing nothing more and more these days. That he felt like something he's been trying to suppress is resurfacing. He's been different even though he tells me he loves me, wants a future with me and wants to see me. He bought a ticket for me to come and see him, I felt like I had to practically beg for that, then the next day he got covid, which he canceled the ticket without even telling me. Since he's been sick he only texts me out the day saying he misses me and loves me but idk how to feel or think. Can someone tell me what's happening? Emotionally I'm suffering over here