Please Talk To Me

[Bookoffee]

I know what I did was wrong and posting here was very stupid but I cant deal with the panic, fear, shame. My mind will not turn it off. I need to stop obsessing. I cant believe what I have done. Please help me, talk to me. I am freaking out so much.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Do you mean your last post? I don't think you did or said ANYTHING wrong! I know that nobody here thinks you did anything wrong based on all the support you got.....but, I do know that when the obsessive thoughts take hold, nothing really helps.....can you do something to get your mind off of it? Distract yourself with another activity?

ETA

I think you did the RIGHT thing! I, too, did something awhile ago that was standing up for what was right, but I blamed myself, felt SO guilty....even when I was 1000000% in the right! I think we sometimes blame ourselves even when we don't deserve it in the least!

 

[Anarchy]

Do you think you could be experiencing what Herman describes as orwellian double think: holding two mutually contradictory thoughts in your mind and believing both to be simultaneously true?

It wouldn't be unusual - it is a known symptom.

please hold onto the one which you can logically support - the other one => the baggage that is weighing you down, does not belong to you.

The woman spread an untruth, then retracted - you are not responsible for that.

and even if it was possible, beating yourself up now wouldn't change the past.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

@Bookoffee I have no idea what is being discussed on this thread but I offer a warm :hug: anyway

Laurie

 

[scout86]

Like everyone else who's responded so far, I haven't seen ANYTHING you've posted here that was "wrong", It's pretty nearly impossible to do that. If you were to post something that was "wrong" they'd remove it. (They haven't done that and not told us, have they? If they have, then you STILL have nothing to worry about because no one saw it.

We're willing to talk to you, Can you give us a better idea of what you're concerned about?

 

[Bookoffee]

I can't believed that I exposed myself that I was the one that went out of control and contacted people. I am scared now.

 

[scout86]

We ARE talking about you (bravely) contacting the media about the woman who lied, or was confused, or what ever, aren't we? That's the last thread I know of that you started here.

What are you afraid of? Can you identify something specific that you're afraid of right now? It might seem "out of control" to you now, but I've never seen you say anything that was that out of control and what you said in that post didn't sound out of control either.

 

[Bookoffee]

I am letting my fear run away from me and I cant gather myself. This is a hateful world

 

[scout86]

Having your fear run away with you is no fun! Rest assured, we all are on your side, 100%. I don't think anyone here thinks you did anything wrong. I certainly don't!

Can you find something to do to distract you? Sometimes it helps me if I can find something else really absorbing to occupy my mind and get me to quit thinking about what ever it is I'm driving myself crazy with.

 

[Bookoffee]

God God I am hating the internet right now. I am trying to calm down. I am breathing and talking. I wish I could see my therapist. Life situations held me back from seeing him today. I am having difficulty so I don't know when I will be able to see him

 

[scout86]

Sorry you didn't get to see your therapist today! Do you have a way to stay in touch with him between sessions? What kinds of things does your therapist suggest you do when you need to calm down?

Breathing is good!

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

:hug: :hug:

Continue breathing Bookoffee! We are here for you, if I may speak for everyone!