I'm unlikely to spend the money for a formal diagnoses as there are too many things in my life demanding the contents of my pockets and some I have been neglecting for a long time.I have been toying with doing this for the last 10 years but am now accepting am unlikely to do so. I know no one can diagnose me and am not expecting anyone to do so. What would be helpful is if it could be pointed out if a difficulty doesn't fit with one or the other of these, or both. I have had 2 friends with ADD and children with ADHD and who know me fairly well say they think this is an issue for me. Have had a friend who is a clinical psychologist say the same. A client and one of my previous therapists. Dyslexia has also been mentioned. If dyslexia is part of this then I suspect it doesn't affect me enough to be an actual diagnoses. I have found ways around many of the things I found hard. A lot of issues I had were due to dissociation but as the mist is clearing I am seeing a few other issues more clearly.
1. My mind doesn't stay on the rails and keeps going off the track at random times. In fact that is my normal state. 20 000 tributaries at any one time.
2. I have been doing a lot of writing recently and have realised I find it hard to go directly from a to b in a coherent way. There are always little asides, comments, other thoughts etc.
3. The grammar is hard to contain. Its not that I am totally ignorant but putting it in the right order is hard and time consuming. If I want it to read properly it takes time and energy. Things are back to front and upside down. It doesn't really match what I know.
4. Spelling has improved and I was never totally incapable but it isn't easy and I swap words around. It used to be much much worse until I spent a lot of time really trying to change this.
5. I can't list and remember things unless I write them down. Then I struggle to find the list.
6. I struggle to find anything in paper form. Looking for a file or invoice can be really painful and intimidating. If its on a computer I can search for it. If not I have a real block about it in a way that doesn't match my intelligence or general mental health functioning. Its a bit like having a type of vision impairment.
7. I hyperfocus or struggle to focus. Those are my two modes.
8. I find it easier to concentrate when there is information dense stuff in front of me tham if something is what most people find easier.
9. I often need to draw diagrams to make sense of information said to me.
10. It takes longer than it should take me to process information or write it down coherently considering my level of intelligence (average) and functionality. For example I am neither depressed nor chronically dissociated at present. I am also not experiencing these things because of excessive rumination and distraction.
Any input is welcome. I'm hoping to find further understanding of myself and resultant improved ways of approaching things, Thanks so much.
1. My mind doesn't stay on the rails and keeps going off the track at random times. In fact that is my normal state. 20 000 tributaries at any one time.
2. I have been doing a lot of writing recently and have realised I find it hard to go directly from a to b in a coherent way. There are always little asides, comments, other thoughts etc.
3. The grammar is hard to contain. Its not that I am totally ignorant but putting it in the right order is hard and time consuming. If I want it to read properly it takes time and energy. Things are back to front and upside down. It doesn't really match what I know.
4. Spelling has improved and I was never totally incapable but it isn't easy and I swap words around. It used to be much much worse until I spent a lot of time really trying to change this.
5. I can't list and remember things unless I write them down. Then I struggle to find the list.
6. I struggle to find anything in paper form. Looking for a file or invoice can be really painful and intimidating. If its on a computer I can search for it. If not I have a real block about it in a way that doesn't match my intelligence or general mental health functioning. Its a bit like having a type of vision impairment.
7. I hyperfocus or struggle to focus. Those are my two modes.
8. I find it easier to concentrate when there is information dense stuff in front of me tham if something is what most people find easier.
9. I often need to draw diagrams to make sense of information said to me.
10. It takes longer than it should take me to process information or write it down coherently considering my level of intelligence (average) and functionality. For example I am neither depressed nor chronically dissociated at present. I am also not experiencing these things because of excessive rumination and distraction.
Any input is welcome. I'm hoping to find further understanding of myself and resultant improved ways of approaching things, Thanks so much.