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Possible PTSD
In gonna start by saying i’m 13 and going into 8th grade, i’m in special ed classes with only up to 10 kids for most of my classes.
The teacher for the small group classes was AWFUL. She was a rude, awful old woman who had no respect for anyone but herself. She would purposely trigger my anxiety so she could yell at me for crying and she always favored this one kid who threatened to sue me for pissing him off and even pushed me in a wall for an argument once. Many incidents occurred with this woman. She would threaten me, make up lies to my mom during the parent teacher meetings, scream at me for no reason and she even denied me access to things that were on my IEP.
One incident that happened, not involving her but still involves the school is one i’ll never forget.
The schedule for this day had been out of order, so i didn’t know what class to go to. I went to another special ed teachers classroom (not the mean one) and waited outside her room for her to come back so I could ask her where to go, apparently while I was patiently waiting, the teacher for the class I was supposed to go to had called BOTH ASSISTANT principals on me, keep in mind the school knows I have a fear of high authority. I’ve been afraid of principals/assistant principals ever since Kindergarten and I made it VERY clear to the school that I would get absolutely terrified if one was called on me. Especially a particularly mean one who happened to be called that day. He accused me of “skipping class” and called me “disrespectful” when I tried to defend myself. They took me to one of their offices, where I ended up having a panic attack outside the door. One of them had the nerve to tell me to “shut up” while I was crying. He had tried to force me to admit that I was skipping class when I very much wasn’t, which led to the other assistant principal saying “well if you aren’t wiling to admit it I guess you can spend your lunchtime in here doing extra work” which led to the panic attack getting worse. big surprise, I was told to shut up again. I ended up falsely admitting to get out of that situation since I couldn’t handle it anymore.
Another situation was with the sped teacher I had mentioned earlier getting into an argument with me.
It had been the last class of the day, since this was so long ago I forget most of what happened. But an argument had arose about the favorite kid of the class, who caused major problems for everyone else. I complained saying that this was one of the many reasons I hated being at that school. Which she responded by making fun of me. She stomped around the class room mimicking my voice saying “I hate this school! I hate my teachers! I hate my life!” and also saying “Maybe if you weren’t such a negative nancy you wouldn’t hate your life so much” which was completely inappropriate of her.
The last thing.
I had always carried my phone with me as a way to ease my anxiety, knowing I could go to the bathroom and call my mom if an issue happened, one day an issue happened where a teacher found out and had a male teacher follow me to the bathroom which scared me so badly that I just stood outside the bathroom door. That teacher told the assistant principal, the female one who i’m also not a big fan of. She told me I had to keep my phone at home which I said was not an option. My family makes it very clear that i HAVE to take my phone to school with me for safety reasons and I also prefer to have it with me. She then started saying I could keep it with her. Which I did not trust as she had broken my friends phone before and refused to pay when her parents requested she give them the money to buy her a new one. I’m not trying to brag but I do have the iPhone X, I paid with my own 1000$ and I’m NOT trusting someone with a phone breaking history with something that expensive. She then said that I could leave it in the office. Which was also a no as students sneak into the office and steal phones that are left there. She started getting VERY pissed at me, yelling and calling me disrespectful. Another one of my anxiety triggers is being yelled at and I know for a FACT that she knew that. She started asking personal questions that I was FORCED to answer, or I would get detention. She asked who paid my phone bill, when I answered that it was my mom who paid the phone bill she yelled at me and said “So it’s your moms phone, NOT YOURS! So you can’t tell me that I can’t make you leave it here”
When I tried to tell her that I paid for the phone itself she told me to shut up.
This school had caused SO many problems for me. I started making myself throw up at home to avoid going to school. I missed so many days they called the police on me once which made the anxiety so much worse. The teachers and administrators at this school make me feel absolutely powerless. I feel like a hostage at this school. If i try and defend myself they call me “disrespectful” and tell me to shut up. If I do so much as not agree with their opinion i’ll be threatened a detention or kept in the room until I say their opinon is right. The anxiety has gotten so bad where I have panic attacks about school ON THE WEEKENDS! Even driving by the school in the summer or on weekends causes me extreme anxiety, and walking into the building to attend school is a nightmare. I have nightmares about this school all the time, most of them being about going there nextel year for 8th grade. My mom has tried to get a therapist but the process is extremely slow so as of now i’m on my own. I really need help as I don’t know if this is extreme anxiety or PTSD. and if it does happen to be PTSD, would it make sense to ask my mom to sue the school for causing my life to become a living hell. Thank you for your time and I hope you all have great days!
The teacher for the small group classes was AWFUL. She was a rude, awful old woman who had no respect for anyone but herself. She would purposely trigger my anxiety so she could yell at me for crying and she always favored this one kid who threatened to sue me for pissing him off and even pushed me in a wall for an argument once. Many incidents occurred with this woman. She would threaten me, make up lies to my mom during the parent teacher meetings, scream at me for no reason and she even denied me access to things that were on my IEP.
One incident that happened, not involving her but still involves the school is one i’ll never forget.
The schedule for this day had been out of order, so i didn’t know what class to go to. I went to another special ed teachers classroom (not the mean one) and waited outside her room for her to come back so I could ask her where to go, apparently while I was patiently waiting, the teacher for the class I was supposed to go to had called BOTH ASSISTANT principals on me, keep in mind the school knows I have a fear of high authority. I’ve been afraid of principals/assistant principals ever since Kindergarten and I made it VERY clear to the school that I would get absolutely terrified if one was called on me. Especially a particularly mean one who happened to be called that day. He accused me of “skipping class” and called me “disrespectful” when I tried to defend myself. They took me to one of their offices, where I ended up having a panic attack outside the door. One of them had the nerve to tell me to “shut up” while I was crying. He had tried to force me to admit that I was skipping class when I very much wasn’t, which led to the other assistant principal saying “well if you aren’t wiling to admit it I guess you can spend your lunchtime in here doing extra work” which led to the panic attack getting worse. big surprise, I was told to shut up again. I ended up falsely admitting to get out of that situation since I couldn’t handle it anymore.
Another situation was with the sped teacher I had mentioned earlier getting into an argument with me.
It had been the last class of the day, since this was so long ago I forget most of what happened. But an argument had arose about the favorite kid of the class, who caused major problems for everyone else. I complained saying that this was one of the many reasons I hated being at that school. Which she responded by making fun of me. She stomped around the class room mimicking my voice saying “I hate this school! I hate my teachers! I hate my life!” and also saying “Maybe if you weren’t such a negative nancy you wouldn’t hate your life so much” which was completely inappropriate of her.
The last thing.
I had always carried my phone with me as a way to ease my anxiety, knowing I could go to the bathroom and call my mom if an issue happened, one day an issue happened where a teacher found out and had a male teacher follow me to the bathroom which scared me so badly that I just stood outside the bathroom door. That teacher told the assistant principal, the female one who i’m also not a big fan of. She told me I had to keep my phone at home which I said was not an option. My family makes it very clear that i HAVE to take my phone to school with me for safety reasons and I also prefer to have it with me. She then started saying I could keep it with her. Which I did not trust as she had broken my friends phone before and refused to pay when her parents requested she give them the money to buy her a new one. I’m not trying to brag but I do have the iPhone X, I paid with my own 1000$ and I’m NOT trusting someone with a phone breaking history with something that expensive. She then said that I could leave it in the office. Which was also a no as students sneak into the office and steal phones that are left there. She started getting VERY pissed at me, yelling and calling me disrespectful. Another one of my anxiety triggers is being yelled at and I know for a FACT that she knew that. She started asking personal questions that I was FORCED to answer, or I would get detention. She asked who paid my phone bill, when I answered that it was my mom who paid the phone bill she yelled at me and said “So it’s your moms phone, NOT YOURS! So you can’t tell me that I can’t make you leave it here”
When I tried to tell her that I paid for the phone itself she told me to shut up.
This school had caused SO many problems for me. I started making myself throw up at home to avoid going to school. I missed so many days they called the police on me once which made the anxiety so much worse. The teachers and administrators at this school make me feel absolutely powerless. I feel like a hostage at this school. If i try and defend myself they call me “disrespectful” and tell me to shut up. If I do so much as not agree with their opinion i’ll be threatened a detention or kept in the room until I say their opinon is right. The anxiety has gotten so bad where I have panic attacks about school ON THE WEEKENDS! Even driving by the school in the summer or on weekends causes me extreme anxiety, and walking into the building to attend school is a nightmare. I have nightmares about this school all the time, most of them being about going there nextel year for 8th grade. My mom has tried to get a therapist but the process is extremely slow so as of now i’m on my own. I really need help as I don’t know if this is extreme anxiety or PTSD. and if it does happen to be PTSD, would it make sense to ask my mom to sue the school for causing my life to become a living hell. Thank you for your time and I hope you all have great days!