Post covid hypervigilance

NoWhereKnowWhere

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There were a lot of things I thought I finally had a handle on before the pandemic. Hypervigilance in crowds being one of them. When I had to be vigilant because dick holes couldn’t wear their masks properly or be far too close! pandemic or no why are you breathing down my neck?

Trying to get back to normal but the hypervigilance has other ideas. It’s as bad as it ever was. Years of work and desensitisation down the shitter. At least I know what I have to do I guess. This sucks!

And the social ineptitude because I haven’t spoken to people outside of my close friends. I’m a babbling buffoon. Which does wonders for the social anxiety 😂.

My dissociative symptoms are having a great time. Another thing I thought I had a lid on.

I can’t be alone in this two years of worry f*cks up people who don’t have ptsd. So has anyone else found recurrence or worsening of symptoms?
 

Nevermore

MyPTSD Pro
I’ll chime in! I have to say that for me covid and lockdown (and my city was locked down for 2 years more or less) actually brought some peace and respite!
I realised how much my anxiety and dread has to do with other people - not fear of disease but fear of boundary crossings,abuse, craziness ..the normal human things.
I don’t mind the extra space between people. I think it’s a great idea in all sorts of ways!
Social ineptitude I have lived with forever, but I find myself questioning the way we socialise anyway. Does anyone really enjoy it when it causes so much stress to so many?
I really hope we don’t get back k to “normal”. I hope the great contemplation creates change for the better for all of us!
 

NoWhereKnowWhere

MyPTSD Pro
I’ll chime in! I have to say that for me covid and lockdown (and my city was locked down for 2 years more or less) actually brought some peace and respite!
YES! Me too!

I did have a bit of a breakdown just before the world shut down. Not having the pressure to work and do stuff was honestly amazing. I only feel like I’m getting back to myself now. So I’m trying the usual methods for this point of recovery which entails socialising and having some kind of community as well as not being alone in my head all day. I’m finding it really hard to feel comfortable around people again.
 

Sideways

Moderator
I can’t be alone in this two years of worry f*cks up people who don’t have ptsd.
Yeah, absolutely. Mental illness numbers here skyrocketed during the pandemic (especially depressive and anxiety issues). Personally, I found I had massive issues particularly after periods of lockdown.

But, like you said, I've already learned (and applied) the skills I needed to use to get myself back out of the hole. That's not to say it was easy, but at least I wasn't back at square one, you know?

I've got peers who went through months and months and months of lockdown. I'd be very surprised if that didn't impact the mental health of people who had to deal with that tbh.

The whole "public awareness" campaigns had their good and their bad influences for me. It was great to be well informed, but there definitely came a point where sickness-education just started feeding anxiety. I think that the flow-on effects of that were that I became really strongly anti-social media, because of the amount it fed into my avoidance issues (squarely a ptsd thing), which is something I need to constantly work at managing to keep under control.
 

brat17

MyPTSD Pro
Initially I felt the panic. Wearing masks and distancing of course, but wiping down groceries and disinfecting everything. I feared covid due to my age and pre existing lung condition. I feel like I have gone thru an entire series of emotions. I don't socialize much and like it that way, but NO contact was hard to get use to. Summer came and things lightened a bit, not just to socialize, but more to do outside the home. I have come to not mind the isolation at all.

I remember having carpet laid and avoiding all contact and wearing a mask. lol (few months into it)

Vaccines and boosters-got them all. Even so, Monday I tested positive. I no longer have that huge fear of ending on a vent and dying. Im on anti virals and steroid treatment because of my lungs. I am hoping that all the info we have been feed has been correct, and the outcome is not as bad with all these vaccines. While I think I am recovering, not quite sure, and symptoms seem to move around. First it was severe sore throat and headache, better after2-3 days but chest congestion worse. Waking up during the night with cough, and likely from steroid.

I dont want to return to the old ways. However, people are still invading space from what I see.
 
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