I dont know how to stop living as if im still in an abusive relationship. I dont know how to stand by my boundaries and always end up doing things I don't want to just to make someone else happy or to avoid upsetting them. Im so weak, submissive and pathetic that it lead me to getting arrested. I am facing a felony charge and I am effing terrified. I want to punch myself in the face for being this way. why is it so hard for me to say no? Any advice?