In 2012, I had a missed miscarriage (I was pregnant for 7 weeks after my baby had passed away at 6 weeks along). During that pregnancy, before I even had a confirmed miscarriage, I started having anxiety and panic attacks. I found out the baby had passed away when I was 10 weeks along. After that, I had panic attacks every night for months. Slowly, I recovered, I didn't seek medical help though, for the anxiety. I even had the miscarriage at home (well actually at my grandma's house). So about 9 months later, I got pregnant again and had anxiety and panic attacks during that pregnancy (that was my 3rd child). When she was 13 months old, she was burned in a house fire and was in the hospital for 20 weeks. After that, I saw a counselor for almost a year. I was experiencing hyper-vigilance and just general daily anxiety about everything. I have been doing pretty good for the past year. I've had what I would consider small panic attacks about once a week... mine are always health related.. like feeling a pain and thinking that somehow that pain will lead to my sudden death. But I've gotten to where I can tell myself, it's just a panic attack and it will be over soon. And I'm able to wait it out without anyone around me noticing it.. I'm in nursing school right now and it usually happens while I'm sitting in class. Well, I had a surprise pregnancy and I'm 24 weeks along. I had a pretty bad panic attack tonight. It started with a pain in my lower left abdomen. I was so distraught. I was asking my husband if he was going to let me die and telling him that I love him etc... made him come to the bathroom with me while I sat on the toilet, held his hand and I was shaking so bad. These are the kinds of attacks I was having in 2012. I really don't want to go back to that again. The pain was most likely just constipation, gas or normal pregnancy growing pains. But all I could imagine was that I was bleeding out on the inside and would soon be dead. I think I just needed to get that all written down tonight and I appreciate anyone for reading this.