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Is anyone else just feeling so unlovable right now? I know, challenge those thoughts, however, if I’m real, I don’t have any evidence to say I’m loveable.
Sure, people are always telling me ‘how does a pretty lady like you not have a man’ or ‘any man would be cray to let you go’ blah blah blah, but good grief, every single person in my life leaves, I’ve attracted some really unhealthy men, and I’m just left constantly thinking - am I that unloveable? Do I even know how to love? Am I that broken?
And then the spiral begins.....all the abuse I received as a child, did I deserve it? Is that all I deserve? Is that the kind of love I’m only ever gonna get?
I don’t feel anyone wants me in their lives. My loneliness is unbearable right now.
Disclaimer, I am currently digging up some serious stuff with my therapist so these thoughts have surfaced and taken control over me.
My mind hurts right now.
Sure, people are always telling me ‘how does a pretty lady like you not have a man’ or ‘any man would be cray to let you go’ blah blah blah, but good grief, every single person in my life leaves, I’ve attracted some really unhealthy men, and I’m just left constantly thinking - am I that unloveable? Do I even know how to love? Am I that broken?
And then the spiral begins.....all the abuse I received as a child, did I deserve it? Is that all I deserve? Is that the kind of love I’m only ever gonna get?
I don’t feel anyone wants me in their lives. My loneliness is unbearable right now.
Disclaimer, I am currently digging up some serious stuff with my therapist so these thoughts have surfaced and taken control over me.
My mind hurts right now.